Studying..

Well Bloggers, i never thought i would find studying this hard.. :(
I have 3 essays due very soon, and i have failed to even complete one.
I suck at essay writing!
Give me a assignment to do a poster, or to go out and research, i can do that!
But putting it all into words, and words i don't even use in everyday life, confuses me!
I am freaking out that i won't even pass this Diploma, and if i don't, i have just wasted like $3000 student loan, on what??
NOTHING.
FML?
I think so.